Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Sprouting Life!

I am so beyond happy and relieved to report the week of beta agony is finally over! After a very long and anxious day of waiting for my morning test results with no phone call, I finally called my RE's office to get the results. The nurse first apologized for not calling sooner and then explained that she was waiting to get confirmation from the doctor on some things before calling me.

Of course, my brain very quickly started swirling with thoughts about what kind of things she'd need to confirm and whether it was good or bad. As I tried to articulate these thoughts she realized how anxious I was and said my results were good though. I asked how good and she said my beta levels were 2659! I felt so shocked so ecstatic and emotional, I couldn't breathe. I made her repeat the number to make sure I heard right and I did, 2659 up from the 822 level two days ago. I did the math, it tripled!
I thanked her profusely for delivering the good the news then immediately called Chad to tell him the good news.

I was still shaking and barely breathing when I called him so the poor guy had to go keep his own emotional outburst in check while he tried to decipher what I was saying. Finally he heard "tripled" and let it all out. Since then he has spent the the evening randomly coming up to me and whispering "You're Pregnant!" with a silly smile on his face. He even exclaimed to a stranger on the sidewalk "My wife's pregnant!" To say he is elated is understatement.

The past week has been so difficult and full of so much anxiety it feels so amazing to know there is life sprouting and growing inside me! I know there are many more miles to go before I can hold Sprout in my arms but I am so grateful to be out of beta limbo. I can't thank all of you enough for all the of the kind words and support you've given me this week and for all of your prayers and positive thoughts. I am so lucky to be a part of such a loving community. Thank you.

So since Sprout and I have graduated from beta tests, we have scheduled our first ultrasound for next Monday the 12th. When the nurse called to schedule she kept repeating "pre-natal ultrasound", as in, "I am calling to schedule your 1st pre-natal ultrasound" and "See you next week for your pre-natal ultrasound". I love the way that sounds! Like music to my ears. I will be right at 6 weeks so I am not expecting a heartbeat yet but I am so thrilled to be at this stage and to know that I can enjoy this next week without worrying so much. I can write down symptoms in my pregnancy journal and daydream about how we are going to re-do the office into a nursery. Most importantly I can let myself relax enough to actually believe that I am pregnant and nourishing my amazing little Sprout!

25 comments:

Megan said...

Holly, I am soooooooooo excited for you and Chad! This is truly terrific news and you deserve it!!!! I'm keeping you in my thoughts and hope you enjoy 34+ more weeks of pregnancy bliss!

Candidly_Andrea said...

Oh Holly - I am so excited for you guys. I was brought to tears reading this post. Congrats again and enjoy every single moment.

Roxanne said...

Soo happy the beta confirmed what we all knew all along!! :) I am soo excited for you and the hubby!! Congrats Mama!! :)

Lindsey said...

Oh Holly, I'm so excited for you! I had to fight tears when you talked about Chad... Soon, I will start crafting you up some of my favorite baby items:-)

Gucci Mama said...

Found you from a link on Twitter - congratulations! And you never know...you just might be able to hear (or at least see) the heartbeat at six weeks. I was able to with both of mine! In any case, enjoy this wonderful time! Congratulations again - how very exciting!

Katie said...

Holly, I am so so so SO excited for you! Congratulations, MOM. This is the best news I've heard all week, by far.

Not There Yet said...

Whoo Hoo! Congrats! What a relief for you guys.
Best to all three of you...

Tiffany said...

Wow Holly that is FANTASTIC!! I'm so happy for you guys! I have to tell you this...one of the crazy side effects of pregnancy are crazy dreams. I've had more dreams the past few weeks then I ever remember having. Well, I'm telling you this because you were in a dream! Yes, I had a dream that you and I finally met over the phone for a conversation and you were from France or something like that and I had to help you with your English. Who knows...how hilarious. Enjoy your pregnancy!

ventingvagina said...

i've been waiting for your update! congratulations! can't wait to hear how the u/s goes on monday!

Gia said...

Holly, I teared up as I was reading your update. SO excited for you and your husband! Congratulations, Mommy!

Jin said...

YAY! They found a hb at my 6w ultrasound so they may find one at yours too. Congrats mommy!

Miracle in the Making said...

Congratulations again!! I'm so excited for you!! xoxo

Ashley said...

Holly I am SO SO happy for you!! :) Congratulations!!

The Millers said...

AAAAAAHHHHHH! THAT IS FANTASTIC NEWS! I am so very happy for you and your hubs!

Habakkuk 2:3- "For the vision awaits an appointed time, it speaks of he end and will not prove false. Though it linger, wait for it; it will come and will not delay. said...

Praise God!!!!! I'm so happy for you!!!!!!!!! There are so many "baby steps" to conqueor through this process...1st ultrasound...heartbeats, etc it never ends, but God has this in His hands and you can be at peace with that!!!! Having peace in the middle of a terrible crisis is something that is difficult to explain, but I have experienced it. There have been situations that would start to throw me into a fear-stricken panic, but I would take out scriptures I had previously written down and begin to read them aloud. Soon, a soothing calmness would come over me and I would have a knowing inside that everything would be alright! Congrats mommy!!! Now we get to wait and see if its 1 or 2!!!! Happy to go through this journey with you!

Mrs. Cline said...

Congratulations! Such wonderful news and such an exciting time in your life!

Waiting Lisa said...

I am so happy and excited for you!!! :)

braving-ivf said...

Really happy you got your numbers and can relax a little!

My ultrasound is Friday the 16th, so we're staying in sync! :)

Holly said...

Yea! Relax and grow my niece or nephew! :) LOVE YOU!

Jessica said...

So happy for you Holly!!!

Adge said...

congrats again. thats cute that your husband is so excited also

BeEncouraged said...

Yeahhh thats so kool.... No you refer to yourself as "We" and the sprout lol... I luv it:-)

rebecca said...

Woo-hoo so happy for you guys!!! Soak in the fantastic joy of this moment, it truly is amazing isn't it?!

tasivfer said...

that is just sooo fantastic!! TRIPLED!! Pre-natal ultrasound! Such lovely words. :-)

Busted Kate said...

Ahhhhh!!!! Congrats congrats CONGRATS!!! I knew it. I am the smartest woman alive. You know I'm taking full credit now right? How, I'm not sure. But I'll find a way.

Seriously, I'm thrilled and all atwitter. Woo hoo!!!!