Friday, April 16, 2010

Heartbroken

It is officially over. The RE confirmed today on ultrasound that the gestational sac has grown too large without any significant development of a yolk sac for this pregnancy to be viable. My heart is broken.

I can't begin to describe the pain both Chad and I are feeling. We are however very grateful to have each other and to have so many people that care and have already sent virtual hugs our way. Thank you so much for that and for your kindness during this past week of uncertainty.

I have a lot of sadness at this loss as well as a lot of fear about what is to come next and I will be back to blog more about these feelings soon. For now though, I am just going to hold my husband so that we may cry and grieve together.

34 comments:

BabyWid said...

I'm so sorry hun! ((Hugs)) coming your way!! You and your hubby will be in my thoughts and prayers!

Jin said...

I sent you a virtual hug on twitter, but a few more can't hurt. You guys are in my prayers ((hugs)).

Holly said...

tears. I am grieving right alongside you. Love you.

SarahM said...

Oh sweetie, I am so sorry for your heartbreaking news. I am sending you lots of hugs and prayers. I know this can be such a difficult time and it is so great to hear you have a such a great hubby to support you. You are in my prayers.

Courtney said...

Dear sweet Holly I wish this wasn't happening. My heart just breaks for you both.

I am so incredibly sorry.

*hugs*

The Domestic Princess said...

Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry!

Auntie Sissy said...

I'm very sorry to both of you. It is hard to ride the roller coaster of uncertainty with a pregnancy on the line. I have ridden that coaster and know the agony, especially when it turns out like this. I'm thinking of you. Take all the time you need to grieve.

Sharoni said...

Holly, I'm so sorry. There aren't words to ease any of the pain, I wish I had some magic wand that just made things better.

The lyrics to Lifehouse's song Broken come to mind.. "In the pain, there is healing". Its a hard road to get to the healing, but knowing you have a support system and amazing husband to go on the journey with you.

Hang in there, and know you have a ton of people here for you!

Megan said...

Oh Holly, I'm so sorry for you and Chad... I can't imagine what you two must be going through right now, but I'm here for you if you need me. *hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs*

Patrish said...

Truly sorry to hear this. ((HUGS))

braving-ivf said...

Holly,

I'm so sorry for you and your husband. I wish I could take away the pain, and hope that you can comfort each other. Sending good thoughts your way and lots of *hugs*.

ventingvagina said...

i'm so sorry. i'm in the exact same boat at almost the exact same time, so i really know what you're going through. huge hugs.

Katie said...

Holly, there are truly no words. I am so incredibly sorry. You and DH are in my thoughts and prayers. xoxo

Leslie said...

I am so sorry for your loss!! Many PT&Ps to you & your DH!!

Miracle in the Making said...

Oh Holly I am so so sorry. I am crying for you. Many many T & Ps your way sweetie. *hugs* It's just not fair.

Beckie's Infertile said...

Holly I am so sorry to hear about this news! You will be in my thoughts and prayers!

Infertility And Me said...

My heart aches for you. I wish we lived closer, cause sometimes virtual hugs just aren't enough. You and your husband will be in Jess' and my thoughts an prayers

rebecca said...

I'm so sorry, I hate that you guys are in such a painful place right now. Sending prayers & hugs your way, hold tight to each other & know that there are so many of us out there who are holding you close in thoughts & prayers.

Courtney (AKA MommaRoberts) said...

I am so sorry!

Ashley said...

Holly, I am so so sorry. :( My heart hurts for you and your hubby that this happened. You both are in my thoughts! Huge hugs.

Stephanie said...

I am so sorry! My heart breaks for you. I will continue to pray for you and your husband.

Kelly said...

I found your blog through ICLW...

I am so incredibly sorry. I hope that you and your husband find comfort in one another in this difficult time.

(((HUGS)))

Kacey said...

I am so so so sorry.It just doesn't seem fair. I'm praying for you and Chad.

Busted Kate said...

Holly, there are no words. I know this pain all too well, and I know there's nothing I can say that will take this hurt away. I am always here to talk, always here with a virtual shoulder. You are an amazing gal and will be an amazing mom. I am sending you love, prayers, and peace. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Anna. said...

I'm so, so sorry - I can't imagine what you're going through. I'll be praying for you and thinking of you xxxx

cara said...

i know this is a bit late but i wanted to say how sorry i am holly, words cannot describe how sorry i am, you dotn deserve this, heck no body does, i hope you and hubby can grieve and then move forward and become amazing parents *massive hugs*

liberalgranolagirl said...

I know that we've talked on Twitter but I wanted to leave you a blog comment :-p

My heart broke for you when you shared this news with us. It is so damn unfair that you have to go through this. You are such a wonderful person and I can't wait until you get to be a kick ass mommy <3

cowgirltn said...

I am sorry.

Anonymous said...

Here via LFAC- I'm so sorry you have to go through this. It's unfair and horrible. Thinking of you **hug**

Mrs. Cline said...

I'm so, so sorry. It's just not fair.

Katie said...

I am so sorry. There aren't enough words to comfort you in this time. I can promise that it does get. . . not easier, perhaps, but different. It won't hurt to breathe as much as it does right now.

Hugs.

Basic Girl said...

I've been thinking about you all weekend, words cannot express how sorry I am. I've been there, I've seen the u/s with no development...and I don't think anything has been harder. It's so unfair and my heart hurts when I know someone else has to endure that pain. Take the time to grieve, we are all here for you. (((HUGS)))

tireegal68 said...

Hi, I'm here from LFCA to send you a big hug and to say how sorry I am for your heartbreak. Hold each other tight.

Marie W said...

From LFCA - keeping you in thought and prayer.