Monday, August 2, 2010

Is It Nap Time Yet?

Well it's Monday, which means I had my 3rd beta today. My last beta level came in at 1315 four days ago, so it should have doubled twice and measured at about 5200 today. I had my blood drawn at 8am and was then told that the results wouldn't be in until after lunch, at about 2pm, a wait that normally would have made me incredibly anxious, but today I have been far too tired to feel very strongly about anything except my desire to curl up with my soft green blanket and pass out. Actually, I was in just such a state when the phone rang this afternoon and my nurse very happily reported that my beta was 6900!

She then decided my number was high enough to warrant an ultrasound but wanted to consult with Dr Jedi first before scheduling the appointment. She said it would either be Friday when we would be able to see the yolk sac but possibly too early for the heartbeat, or Monday when she was confident a heartbeat should be visible. I happily thanked her for the good news and went back into my couch coma. After another hour so she called to schedule the first ultrasound for Monday.

Seems Dr. Jedi thinks those few extra days will be worth it for a better chance of finding a heartbeat. And even though it is a full week's wait, I agree with him. The ultrasound was mine and Sprout's undoing last time. Even worse though was that it was all so inconclusive. At that 1st ultrasound, we were told it was most likely a non-viable pregnancy, but I had 3 more ultrasounds before it was made official. That week and a half of uncertainty and doomed hope made everything so much harder. It forced us to put our grief on hold and dragged out the hurt. I hope with all of my heart that this pregnancy is the one that goes the distance, but either way I want as much accurate and conclusive information as I can get from the very first ultrasound. So those few extra days of waiting is really worth it to me. (
Please remind me I said this when I am freaking out at the end of the week, anxiously willing Monday to hurry up and get here.)

Right now though, I feel pretty calm and relaxed about the wait. Or maybe I'm just too sleepy to be nervous. I honestly feel like I have the ability to sleep straight through until next Monday, only waking periodically to do my injections and maybe eat or go to the bathroom. I took 2 naps today, both filled with crazy vivid dreams (one of which lots of my bloggy and twitter friends showed up in!) Yes, these symptoms make me happy but they aren't as comforting as you would think, since the sleepiness and vivid dreams stuck around until well after my last pregnancy was determined to be non-viable. I just need to see the heartbeat to feel like this is real and if I have to wait a few extra days for that, it will be worth it. I am still one tired girl though, so if you need me I will be the girl curled up the couch napping. Wake me when it's Monday again.

17 comments:

Amber said...

Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!! So happy for you!!!

Tiffany said...

Of course you're sleepy....you're growing a baby!!!!!!!! (or 2?) :-) (Big Cheesy Smile inserted here) I'm so happy for you. I agree Monday will be the best, even though the wait might kill you. So go back to your couch and take care of sprout!

Anonymous said...

Yay! Oh, I am so happy to read this news, and even though you will have to wait the weekend, I'm happy they are doing the u/s on Monday so you can see the heartbeat. Until then, rest up. You are tired because your body is growing a little bean! :)

Gia said...

So glad to hear about the beta! Rest up and take lots of naps; that will make the time from now until Monday go much faster!!

Jenn said...

great news! Hope that you got a good nap in!

T said...

THAT BETA IS FANTASTIC! I am so happy for you. Sweet dreams momma!

Anonymous said...

YAY! I am so happy for you.

Lindsey said...

I'm so excited for you, you deserve some great news!
Now... go sleep all you can:-)

Brave IVF Girl said...

Woohoo!

Sleeping until Monday sounds like a fine plan to me!

Everything is crossed over here hoping that your U/S looks good!

Lisa said...

Fantastic numbers! Curling up on the couch sounds good to me.

Iam veRONIque said...

Hoping that next month is gonna an answered prayer month for you. Enjoy and Relax. :D

Basic Girl said...

Such fabulous news, congrats hun!!! And rest up mommy!!

Type A Nightmare said...

Haha. Yep. Someone definitely sounds pregnant. I remember that week wait before the heartbeat ultrasound. Pure torture. Sleep lots. ;) Yay!!!!

Amaprincess said...

Preggo Partners in the house!!! (you can't see but I am raising the roof) So happy with your new beta! Can't wait til we BOTH hear our babies heartbeats next week!!!!!

Amaprincess said...

Um.....I think it was Preggo Pals...I don't like Preggo Partners...yea...so Preggo Pals it is!

Mrs. Chapman's 2nd Grade Class said...

This is amazing news!! Can't wait to hear about the ultrasound!

the baby baker said...

smiling big for your news! it's almost monday. i can't wait to hear the latest! congrats again!